I didn’t expect that. I’m pissed. I don’t have the right, considering I did date Nikki, but f**k.
“I’m gonna go back inside,” she says quietly. Before she moves, I grab her arm and move in closer.
“Lexi, I’m sorry. Give me a chance to explain some things. I want to make this right. I want you, desperately. I love you, Lexi,” I tell her.
“I can’t, Ryder. You replaced me almost instantly. You guys are all the same. Sax cheated on me when I was grieving and you…” she trails off. Fuck, Sax cheated on her? I didn’t even know that.
She tries to shrug me off her, but I move faster. I capture her lips with mine, gently nudging her mouth open with my tongue. I know when she gives in because her whole body relaxes, and she leans into me. She tastes amazing, I've missed this so damn much. She moans into my mouth, but then suddenly freezes, and rips her mouth away from mine and shoves me away.
“No, I can’t do this, I don’t cheat!” she yells at me, and then runs back into the building. Fuck!
I don’t bother going back inside. I’m going to go and have a chat with f**king Sax. He’s all pissed and mopey over Lexi, yet he cheated on her.
He needs to get off his high horse and let Lexi go.
*****
Chapter 18
Lexi
What the hell am I doing? I’m just as bad as Sax and Ryder. I can’t believe I just kissed him, while dating Derek. It felt like coming home. I know Derek and I aren’t like that, but I owe it to him to be faithful while we're together. I make my way back into the club and sit by Derek.
“You okay, babe?” he asks, looking at me with concern.
“Yeah, I’m fine,” I tell him, smiling up at him. I need to tell him about the kiss. If not, it will eat me alive; I’m not a person to keep secrets. After a few more drinks Derek and I head to my apartment. He’s yet to spend the night with me, and we've done nothing more than kiss so far. As he walks me to the door, I blurt out, “Derek, I have to tell you something, and you’re probably gonna be mad.”
He frowns and glances at me. “What is it, babe?”
“I kissed Ryder tonight,” I quickly rush on. “I’m so sorry, it won’t happen again.”
Derek is quiet for a moment but he looks pissed. His jaw clenches, and his eyes narrow, but all he tells me is, “It’s okay, babe.”
I don’t know how he can be so forgiving. I unlock the apartment door, and invite him inside. I don’t know if it’s because I feel guilty or what, but I practically attack him, kissing him almost desperately, trying to forget Ryder’s kiss. Derek picks me up in his arms effortlessly, and takes me into my bedroom. I don’t stop him when he undresses me, his gaze raking over my body hungrily. Derek undresses himself afterwards, his brown eyes connected to mine the entire time. I gulp when I take in his muscular body. He's ripped. He pushes me back onto the bed, and pulls a condom out of his wallet, putting it on his aroused cock. When he leans over me and slides inside me with one smooth thrust, I moan out, “Ryder.” He instantly stills. Oh, shit. Shit, shit, shit.
He gets off me in an instant and sits on the bed, his head in his hands.
I feel like the worst person ever.
“Derek, I’m...” I try to explain, but he cuts me off.
“Just don’t. I should have known. It’s always been him,” he says hoarsely.
“I’m so sorry, Derek.” I start crying and he pulls me close to him, hugging me. He's comforting me when I don’t deserve it. This man is one of the good ones.
“It’s okay, Lexi, you’re a great girl. It just didn’t work for us. Don’t be upset, sweetheart,” he croons.
I feel sick that I did this to him. Derek gets up and gets dressed. Before he leaves I give him another hug. “Derek, I'm really sorry. You’re a great guy.”
He sighs and hugs me tight. “It’s okay, Lexi.”
“You’re really hot too,” I tell him.
He chuckles, kisses the side of my head, tells me to take care, and that he’ll see me later. I sink back onto my bed, feeling like shit.
Ryder. I guess he and I need to talk, after all.
*****
Ryder
I storm into Sax’s place without even knocking, and I'm shocked when I see him with a chick in his bed. She’s on all fours, and he’s pounding away behind her. I so do not need to see this shit, especially when I recognize the girl. It’s Payton, the bartender from Steele. I’m pretty sure Lexi and her are friends, too. Fuck!
“What the f**k, man? I thought you were pining away for your precious AJ,” I yell at him, making sure not to look at Payton. Sax quickly covers Payton’s body, apologizing and passing her her clothes. She quickly puts them on, rushing out. She avoids looking at me the entire time. Sax throws his boxers on, his eyes solely on Payton’s retreat.
“I just came to tell you that Lexi is mine. I’m going to get her back because I love her. And I sure as f**k would never cheat on her,” I hiss vehemently. Sax’s gaze snaps to me, like he forgot I was even standing here.
His face pales at my words. “She told you?”
“Yeah, you cocksucker, she told me you cheated on her when she was grieving for her mother. How the f**k could you do that to her?”I fume.
“Trust me, I’ve regretted it every day since.” He wipes his hand over his face. “I loved her, man, I still do. She won’t forgive me, though. When she took off years ago, I tried to find her. And when she came back, I thought it was my chance. But she f**king hates me,” he says, his voice cracking at the end.