"Okay, it's not that—"
"You know I don't do well with this stuff. I never make it to date number two and now this guy says he misses me." I feel my heartbeat start to quicken and, yes, that is definitely panic I am feeling. I don't deal with intimate relationships well at all. In fact, I'm pretty closed off emotionally with guys. I've never had any closeness with my parents, then the one guy I thought at least liked me in high school turned out to be just another ass**le. I feel like I'm emotionally moronic.
I look up to see that Roxy is laughing at me. "It's not funny!"
"It actually is a little bit," she says. "Relax, don't respond. He probably won't even notice. Guys are stupid anyway."
I hope she's right. I hope he isn't sitting there waiting for me to text him back to say that I miss him too. I don't like opening myself up like that.
The next day, Kimber and I get ready for the cookout. I'm in the kitchen preparing the burgers for the grill, and Kimber is chopping up veggies for a salad. Jase has never bothered to introduce us to any guys in the past, so I know he must really like Mark. I don't know much about him aside from the fact that he plays guitar for a local band.
"Hey, Kim, has Jase ever talked to you about Mark before?" I ask as I pound out another hamburger patty.
"Not much. He was pretty pissed off at himself when they broke up, so I figured he had really cared for him but didn't realize it until they split." Kimber slides the salad in the fridge then opens a bag of chips to pour in a bowl.
"Hmm..."
"What?" Sheeyes me as she pops a chip in her mouth.
I walk to the sink to wash my hands. "Nothing." I shake my head. "Just curious."
"We're here," Jase calls out.
I walk into the living room and give him a hug.
"Mark, this is Candace," Jase says as I pull away.
I turn to Mark, "Hey! It's great to meet you. Come on in. We're in the kitchen getting the food ready," I say as I start walking towards the kitchen.
"Hey, Jase," Kimber says with a mouth full of chips.
Jase looks at Mark then back at Kimber. "And this crazy girl is Kimber."
"Nice you meet you guys," Mark says with a grin.
Mark is good looking with an athletic build similar to Jase's. He has dark brown hair and striking green eyes.
"Will one of you start the grill?" Kimber asks the guys.
"Yeah, I can do that," Mark says, and Kimber leads him out back.
Jase and I grab the food and head out behind them. We are lucky to have a large backyard with a nice patio that is covered with a pretty white pergola. We have a table that seats six and off to the side, several chairs that circle around a fire pit. There is a small bar area with a built in grill that we only used when there were guys over to start it up.
Most students our age live in smaller houses or apartments, but Kimber's parents own this house. They bought it when they were having the house built that they live in now.
"This is a nice place you have," Mark says.
Kimber flops down in a chair. "I suppose," she says with a sigh.
I roll my eyes at her and look at Mark, "Please, just ignore her dramatics."
Kimber looks at me and laughs.
"Hey Jase, will you run inside and grab the case of beer that's in the fridge and bring it out? There's a cooler next to the door that already has ice in it," I say.
"Sure," he says and he walks inside the house.
I walk over to Mark who is standing next to the grill and hand him the plate of burgers. "So, Mark, are you in college too?" I ask
He grabs the plate from me and starts placing each patty on the grill. "Yeah, I'll be graduating after this year." He closes the lid and we both sit down as Jase walks over and hands us all beers.
"Same here," I say. "What are you studying?"
Mark takes a swig of his beer, "Same as Jase: Architecture." Looking over at Jase, he adds, "That's how we know each other."
We continue getting to know Mark and having good conversation. I really like him and we corner off for the majority of the night, talking and laughing, while Kimber and Jase drink and talk about who knows what. It's nice to have a relaxing evening with friends.
After cleaning up, it was starting to get late, and we decide to call it a night. I have an early class in the morning, so I need to hit the sack.
"It was so good to meet you, Mark," I say as I walk him to the front door.
"Same here," he responds.
I lean over and give him a hug, "You're welcome anytime, and you don't need Jase with you to stop by."
"Thanks," he says.
Kimber and I say our good-byes to the boys and they head out. Walking to their car, Mark holds Jase's hand and leans in to kiss him on the neck. When I close the door, I look at Kimber. "I love seeing Jase like that," I say.
"Like what?" she asks.
"Happy and comfortable," I say as I lean against the door.
Smiling at me, Kimber says, "Me too. He told me about his trip home."
"Sucks, huh?" I say as I push myself off the door and start walking towards the back of the house to our rooms.
"Yeah," she says and she follows me. "I love you, Candace."
I turn to her, surprised by the affection behind her words.
"I know I tease you a lot, but I just wanted to say it so you know," she says.