I don't respond but take my tray and exit the room, my heart beating like mad again. I'm so glad he didn't recognize me because that would have been even more awkward.
Once I make it back to the safety of the front bar, I busy myself by helping to clean. I don't want Maureen asking me to help her back there again, so I pull out a broom and start the tedious task of sweeping the floors so the night janitor can mop.
I can't believe I ran into Cillian O'Bradaigh. I had thought about him plenty over the past five years, and usually at the most inopportune times. Like for example, when I lost my virginity to my college boyfriend, I wondered while he was making love to me if Cillian would do it the same way, or if it would be better. I guiltily had to banish those thoughts from my head, and worried myself silly for weeks that I was being "unfaithful" to my boyfriend because I thought of another man while we were intimate.
Cady had kept me updated on Cillian. Oh, not because she thought I harbored feelings for him, but because she had introduced me to him that one night, long ago, and thought I'd be interested in his progress.
Well, progress is sort of an understatement.
Apparently, not long after I left, Uncle Keefe started letting his band play at The Hibernian one night a week. Having heard Cillian's music, it was no surprise to me that they developed a hugely popular, cult following. According to Cady, it wasn't long after that a music producer was handing his card to Cillian and asking for a demo.
I hate to admit, but outside of Cady's infrequent updates about Cillian's success, I had Googled him more than once. The year after I met him, OTE released a single that went to the top of the Irish billboards and that led them to playing at bigger venues. Soon, they were opening for major acts and I even saw that they had toured on the West coast of the United States last year. They still hadn't made it onto the American charts, but from what I had read, they were hugely famous throughout the European Union.
I wasn't surprised he didn't recognize me. Let's face it... I was a blip on the radar for him, a young girl, not yet eighteen, that he had spent a few hours with one night five years ago. There's no reason I would have stood out, and frankly, I'd rather sort of forget that time. I've grown up and moved on.
Nope... nothing about Cillian O'Bradaigh interests me in the slightest because he is so not my type. Everyone knows that Renner Caldwell is responsible. She arrives to work early, pays her bills five days before they are due, and she never, ever would get involved with a musician. That is way too risky, far too wild, and didn't fit in with her ideals as to what made up the perfect relationship.
Walking up to the bar, I pull the tips out of my apron and start counting. Tips here are decent, even though it's standard not to tip more than ten percent in Europe. That's because our base wage is far better than what you get paid in the States. But we get so many American tourists in here and they tend to tip a little better so I actually make some pretty good money. At least it's enough to rent a tiny apartment and pay my bills without having to dip into my savings.
Just as I count out the last Euro, a voice says from behind me, "So what's a pretty American doing working at The Hibernian?"
Spinning around, I find Cillian standing right behind me. His hands are tucked into his back pockets and he's standing casually, as if he doesn't have a care in the world. But despite his casual slouch, his eyes are full of potency. It makes me uneasy.
"Oh, just trying out something new." I try to sound breezy and completely unaffected by his presence, but I'm sure he can hear the quake in my voice.
He steps closer and I have nowhere to move, as my back is resting up against the bar. Taking his hand, he drags his knuckles down the side of my bare arm, a move that makes me break out in almost catastrophic shivers. His gaze is on his own hand as it trails down my arm and he has an almost dreamy look on his face. When his knuckles reach the end of my fingertips, his hand falls away and he looks back up at me. "Would you like to have a drink with me tonight? I take it you're off duty now."
My heart is slamming inside of my chest and I can still feel his touch on my arm. "Um... no, thank you. I'm tired and need to get home."
He takes another step toward me and there's only a few inches separating our bodies now. "How about I walk you home, then?"
His voice lays over me like warm chocolate and I literally have to restrain my body from leaning into him. He is annoyingly magnetic and it doesn't help that I know the magic of what his lips can do to a woman.
"No, thank you." Sliding my body two steps to the left, I remove myself from his overwhelming closeness and walk back behind the bar. Removing my apron, I throw it underneath and glance at him. He's watching me with slyness as he leans over and places his forearms on the bar.
"Don't ya know who I am, darlin'? I don't offer a walk home to many ladies." The look on his face tells me that he's probably never been turned down before, and I can also tell he doesn't really expect me to turn him down now. He has confidence written all over his face.
Something about his smug attitude rubs me the wrong way, and the memory of him kissing that other girl five years ago flits through my mind. It makes me remember that Cillian isn't the type of man you take seriously. He's only looking for one thing and if he thinks his rock-star status impresses me, he has another thing coming.
I can't help myself when I snap, "Of course I know who you are, Cillian O'Bradaigh, but your name doesn't impress me much. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going home... by myself." That last bit was just in case he wasn't clear in my distaste of him.