“Anna—”
I flash back to seeing him with Jill, and the hurt returns in full force. I might feel connected to Arrow, but nothing can come of it. After how I acted today I doubt he even wants me like that anymore. Jill is definitely an easier option for him.
“I guess we’re even now,” I say, forcing my lips to move.
I needed to sever the tie between the two of us.
Standing up, I move to leave the room when he finally speaks.
“How so?”
I shrug. “You hurt me and I got you hurt in return. We’re even in my book.”
“Anna—”
I ignore him and leave.
Then I’m finally alone, and I let the tears pour.
* * *
After crying until I had no tears left, and explaining and apologizing to Lana, I take a bath, taking my time soaking in the water. It turns out Lana came to pick me up and when I wasn’t there, she rang Tracker. How she had his number is something I plan on asking her the next time I see her. Tracker had called Arrow, and everyone panicked, knowing what they think they know about the Wild Men’s history and violence toward women. The men had worked quickly, wanting me back and worrying when Talon said he was keeping me overnight. All in all, I was exhausted. Being kidnapped and held hostage was damn exhausting, and I’d rather not do it ever again. I understand I was lucky, in the sense I wasn’t hurt or raped or tortured, but still, I’d been scared.
I’d wanted to go back to my apartment tonight but I was told no, to stay at least another two nights, and for once, I listened without complaint. I didn’t need to start any more trouble—that was for sure. When the bubbles disappear and my wine finished, I drag myself out of the bath and walk into my room wrapped in nothing but a towel. I come to a standstill at the sight of Arrow sitting on my bed, his head in his hands. This whole thing must have brought back memories of Mary, of her being hurt and his not being there to do anything about it. I feel for him, I do, but right now I’m kind of stuck on my own issues. I need to be selfish.
“Arrow—”
“Why did you leave, Anna?” he asks, lifting his head and watching me.
“I was angry,” I say. “I didn’t think I was in any actual danger; I mean, what were the chances? I was stupid, arrogant, and naïve.”
And I wish I could take it back.
“Why?” he demands, brown eyes flashing. “Why were you angry?”
Why was I angry? Was he seriously asking me that?
“Surely you aren’t that stupid, Arrow? You went from my bed to fucking Jill, from kissing me to being inside her. You may not have any feelings for me, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t. I’m sick of you playing with me, so please, just leave and let me get some rest.”
I’m not at my best, my shields are down, my resilience tested, my will temporarily shattered.
I want to wake up to a new day and start fresh. I need time to regain my strength.
“So that’s why you left? Endangering yourself to, what, get back at me?” he asks, steel in his tone.
“No—”
“Well, it worked. I was fucking worried about you; if anything happened to you . . . For fuck’s sake, Anna, if you’re pissed you come to me and let me know. If we’re in private, say whatever you have to say, but you bring it to me. What you don’t do is walk off when we’re on a fuckin’ lockdown, scaring half the men to death. We protect what’s ours, Anna, and whether you like it or not, you are ours.”
I was happy to be theirs, but that didn’t mean I was perfect either.
I sit down on the bed and stare at the wall. “I messed up. I wasn’t thinking.”
“No, you weren’t,” he says with a grunt. “You should have known better.”
“I’m sorry, okay? I’m not used to this, but I know this is my brother’s world, and I love him enough to try better. I won’t fuck up again, okay?” I say, scared he is going to tell me to leave the clubhouse and never come back.
Arrow turns his head to me and scoots closer, gently wrapping me in his arms.
“I’m sorry,” I tell him. “But Talon isn’t a bad guy. At least I don’t think he is.”
His body stiffens. “Don’t even mention that fucker’s name to me. You were lucky, Anna, I need you to realize just how much. You could have been raped or fuckin’ tortured, do you hear me?”
I close my eyes. “I know.”
“I’m not telling you this to upset you,” he says, his tone turning gentle. “You just need to know that you lucked out this time. Talon didn’t hurt you, and that’s why he’s breathing right now, but someone else might not act the same way. There’s a lot of evil out there in this world, Anna, and they’re just dying to suck the life out of something as beautiful and innocent as you.”
“I have to get dressed, Arrow,” I tell him. “We can talk in the morning.”
About anything except the two of us, of course.
He stands and I think he’s going to leave, but instead he picks up the nightie I’d laid out on my bed and kneels before me, sliding the cotton over my head and pulling it down. He removes the towel, letting it drop to the floor, but his eyes stay locked on mine as the material covers my naked body. I open my mouth to ask him what he’s doing when he pulls me into his arms and stands, pulls down the blanket and lays me down. Just like the other night, he lifts off his shirt and slides into the bed on the opposite side. He then reaches over and turns off my lamp, leaving the room in darkness.