"They like you just fine," I told her truthfully. "It's me they don't like. You need to go show them you're with them and not with me."
She gave me a wounded look. "But we're friends. You've been nothing but nice to me, Luna."
"I know. I'm a nice girl." I nudged her with my arm and grinned to take the arrogance out of my words. "But this isn't a game for nice people. This is a game for money, and you've got to play as cutthroat as the rest of them. So go down on that beach and go talk strategy."
She looked uncertain. "What about you?"
"I'm going to stay right here and build a fire." I wagged a finger at her. "Don't you worry about me. I can play my own game."
Reluctantly, she got to her feet, and then she headed down the beach after them. When no one came back after a few minutes, I guessed that Patty had been included after all.
Which was fine. I mean, hell. It didn’t take a psychic to read minds around here. Owen and I didn't get along. Owen was clearly top dog. I was the short, loudmouth Boston girl that kept contradicting the handsome (albeit douchey) leader. They thought I'd f**ked up the challenge for them.
If I wasn't the first person voted out of this shitty team, I'd be shocked.
THREE
Peace and quiet, at last. – Owen MacIntosh, Day 4, Endurance Island: Alaska
4 Days Later
"SO, LUNA, WHY DO YOU think you were the first one out of Endurance Island: Alaska?"
I stared at the camera-man in front of me as if that were the dumbest question I'd ever received. Heck, maybe it was. Hadn't he watched the first three days of footage? The tribe had been against me since we'd landed our canoes on the woodsy shore of the Alaskan island.
But maybe this was one of those 'spill your heart' moments and I was supposed to open up and confess all my sins and make some good TV.
Ha.
But since it couldn't hurt anything, I beamed my sweetest smile at the camera. "I can credit my failure in the game to one person, and one person alone: Owen."
The camera shifted. "Can you talk some more about why you think Owen is responsible?"
"I don't think Owen is responsible—I know he is. As soon as we landed on the island in the canoes, he had it out for me. When I suggested we build fire first, he decided we needed shelter. And then, of course, when it rained and we had neither, it was my fault for dividing the tribe." My smile was tight. "I guess because the weather has something to do with me? At any rate, Owen is one of those chest-beating alpha males that thinks that just because he has a penis, he's smarter than any woman, and refuses to listen to common sense. There was no way I was going to win in that scenario. And as soon as I saw the tribe was siding with him? I knew I was out. I figured I might as well enjoy myself while I was there."
And I had.
I'd relaxed on the cold, rocky beach or lounged near the fire (that I built). I went out and foraged for berries and not shared them with anyone. I fished - and while I didn't catch anything, if I had, I wouldn't have shared it. In short, I was no longer playing a team game.
Owen had killed that for me. So, screw him, and screw all of them. This experience was supposed to be fun, but as soon as I'd arrived, I'd been dead in the water.
Endurance Island was supposed to be fun, right? But combine that with snow and all this Christmas bullshit - and Owen to boot - it had been anything but.
Now, heck, I'd been voted out and was currently residing as the first member of the Loser Lodge. And I had to admit, the Loser Lodge was pretty damn sweet. I'd expected a crappy little cabin not much better than the junky shelter I'd left behind on the red team’s beach.
Nope. When the Endurance Island crew relaxed, they relaxed in style. We were staying at a large resort cabin tucked into the woods. It was just me and the film crew, who cycled in and out for their shifts, and the producers.
Since I was the first one out, I got to have an all-expenses paid vacation for the next month while the others fought and froze on the cold, rocky Alaskan beaches. I curled up with my mug of hot cocoa in front of the roaring fire and tried not to feel too smug about where I was.
So I didn't have the million dollars. I had my pride, and if it couldn't pay the bills, well, I was no worse off than I was when I started.
"Who do you think will be the next to go?" The cameraman asked me as I sipped my cocoa. He was filming one of my exit interviews for the ‘Lodge Home Movies’ that they peppered the Endurance Island website with to encourage traffic. People liked to see the contestants relaxing after the fact, he told me. It made the audience feel better that we were happy and well-adjusted after being voted off. Plus, the website spammed the videos with ads, and that made the producers happy. So despite being voted out? I was still on camera.
I considered things. "The next to go? If the red team loses again, I'm guessing it'll be Patty." She was small and cheery, and determined, but she wasn't very strong. And she'd been friendly with me, which was a big strike against her. "I'm guessing Owen's going to go for strength over anything else, if he's in charge of the team. And if he does, he'll end up with a bunch of clueless meatheads at the merge and they'll fall to pieces."
"And what do you think of that?"
I smiled blithely. "I think it's beautiful. And serves him right."
"So you don't want him to get voted out?"
"Not right away! I don't care how far he gets in the game as long as I don't have to spend my lodge time with him. I actually hope he makes the merge so he can be on the jury and I don't have to look at his smug, grinning ass**le face for the next month. So, yeah, I'd be happy with Patty showing up next. I liked her." She'd been the only person that had come close to being my friend while I was out there - which meant she'd probably be a target for that, too.