After a silent moment, his steps decreased the distance between us again. I was so stunned that it took a moment for my body to react and retreat against his advance. “Natalie, we both know you’re leaving with me tonight, so put the knife down and stop walking away from me. I’d hate to have to kill the man sleeping in your bed. I feel indebted to him slightly, since he took care of you when I couldn’t.”
My jaw tightened with anger. “That man has been my boyfriend since I was sixteen! He’s the one who truly loves me, and he’s the one I love!”
“Love is fickle. Once removed and back in my care, you’ll learn I’m all you’ll need.”
Fuck! Did he hear the words spewing out of his own goddamn mouth? Or did he truly not realize how f**ked up his logic with life was?
Lost in my own thoughts, it took me a moment to realize his steps weren’t coming around the island again. They were passing through the dining room, away from me.
“You have whatever few seconds it’ll take me to reach that man you so dearly care for, to lay the knife on the counter and catch up to me, ready to go. Otherwise, I’ll be shooting at him in the dark. Whether or not the bullets hit anything critical enough to kill him, I’ll guess we’ll have to wait and see.”
Zander did something very loud with his gun as he disappeared into the hallway. I didn’t even take the time to think. The blade automatically fell free of my grip and bounced loudly on the ceramic beneath me. “No! Stop!” I shouted, my feet taking off. I ran blindly through the darkness, slamming my knee into the door jamb when I cut the hallway too soon.
An oomph expelled from chest upon impact, but I kept moving, using my hands to push me off the wall with momentum. The hallway was pitch black and I slammed into Zander unexpectedly about half way to the master bedroom. He must’ve been expecting the impact, because he absorbed it without me knocking him over. His hands gripped my shoulders so tightly I almost winced in pain. “You see? Deep down you are eager to come away with me.”
Neither of his hands held the gun anymore. I was sure it was tucked into the back of his pants, and if I thought for one second I could grab it and fire off the perfect shot before he could stop me, I would’ve done it. But there was no way this killer wouldn’t beat me to the draw. And though I was quite certain he wouldn’t kill me for attempting it, he would surely take it out on Nick. Damn this ass**le for using him against me.
“Please don’t hurt him,” I found myself begging. Captivity would be that much more torturous knowing I caused him harm, or worse, death.
His hands slid down to grip both my upper arms, and I knew in that moment, I was absolutely trapped again. I was his, despite my futile attempts to keep him at bay. “I didn’t kill him last time and I won’t kill him this time, provided you agree to do what I say.”
I swallowed hard. Even saying this in complete darkness wasn’t easy. “I will.”
He turned me around in his grip and shoved me into the bedroom, not coming to a stop until we reached Nick’s bedside. My eyes had finally adjusted to the dark, the moon lighting the room with the palest of silver glows. Nick looked so at peace, lost in a dream I’d sell my soul to be our reality.
Zander released me. One arm moved to wrap loosely around my neck, as the other slipped beneath the oversized t-shirt I was wearing. He pressed his mouth to my ear and whispered, “How does it feel, hmm?” His hand made it all the way to my breast, where he stopped and played for a while. I squirmed against the invasion, leading him to wrap his other arm around me more tightly. My hands flew to pull against it, but I knew better than to struggle too hard. He was baiting me on purpose, and the more I wiggled, the more aggressive he was, fondling me so hard I winced in pain.
“To know that I could literally bend you over and f**k you right on top of this guy, and there’d be nothing he could do about it? He’d just sleep right through it, while I took what you claim is his.” A few tears began to fall as I stood absolutely still. In return, his assault on me lessened in intensity, but the softness of his hand against such an intimate part of my body still sickened me. “But you’re not his, right?” he led. “So there’s no reason for me to feel territorial and do something like that. Right?”
“Right,” I agreed with a whisper. I pinched my eyes and swallowed hard, forcing out, “He was just watching out for me while you were busy. But you’re here now. So we can be free of him now.”
I couldn’t stop the floodgates as they opened, but I cried my tears in absolute silence, trying to feel dead inside. Because dead was what I was going to have to be to endure this. I was going to have to try to force myself from feeling things. I was going to have to let my heart shut down and forget about the love I was leaving behind in this bed. Otherwise, Zander was going to eat me and my feelings alive. He devoured them last time, craved them, like they were his f**king drug. He fed off of every manipulating thing he did to me. And he already picked up right where he last left off.
This was why he came back for me. This was why he wanted me and not some broken little girl he could pick up at auction. He wanted me because I was alive. Because I felt. Because the pain was etched on my face every time he won. And because he loved f**king with me in every possible way.
15
My neck felt heavy. My eyes too. And there was this disgusting metallic taste in my dry, cotton mouth that was making me queasy. I forced my tired eyes open, focusing in on a dark brown ceiling fan that didn’t look familiar. Snapping upward, I inhaled a burst of air so sharply it stung my lungs, but I couldn’t go far. Secured around my wrists were leather straps that attached me to a massive wood and iron headboard for a king-sized bed. I was dressed in an all too familiar style of silk slips, disturbingly aware that I was once again without any kind of underwear. Thankfully, a soft cotton sheet layered beneath a blanket kept me covered.
Thankfully? Did I just seriously think that word in my head?
I remember… My memory was a bit fuzzy, but I remembered Zander coming to steal me away again. I remembered him threatening Nick. I remembered him forcing me to strip and take a shower, washing every little inch of me. I remembered the water was too cool because the water heater had no power. As I fingered my scalp, I felt the oil settled on my roots. That had to have been several days ago. I couldn’t remember anything after that. Not even what he did to knock me out.
Or Nick. I squeezed my eyes tight, the cage around my heart compressing heavily, my throat feeling constricted. Please. Please tell me he kept his word and didn’t hurt him. As much as I hated to admit it about the f**ker, Zander seemed a man of his word. He always did exactly what he said he would do, or hopefully in this case, wouldn’t do.
I licked my dry lips and assessed my surroundings. There was a large window in the room that showed nothing but the base of numerous trees. No drapery. Not even blinds. And it wasn’t tinted in the slightest, because really, why would it be when nothing but the forest surrounded you? And of course, it would be unbreakable.
Minimalism seemed to be the recurring theme throughout the room. In the far right corner was a chaise, tufted and shaded dark red like the bed linens. There was a massive built-in in the wall to my right, which I assumed was locked judging by the touch screen stuck to the outside, and most likely contained the same computer and security things the last one had. There were no bedside tables or décor items, not even on the wall. Basically nothing that I would be able to pick up and use as a weapon against him. All that was left was a similar space his last bedroom held, a four by six rug with a set of manacles lying atop it that were attached to a steel loop in the floor. I shivered, remembering all too well what it was like to be chained to a spot like that night and day.
Soft music played from a speaker I spotted in a top corner. The only light came from the ceiling fan that spun in the center of the room, its crystal globe dimmed to a level typically used to set the mood. I swallowed hard as I stared at a camera that pointed directly at me from the middle of the far wall, which hung directly above the flatscreen.
My mouth fell agape. It shouldn’t have surprised me, but it still did a little. The music, the dim light. He knew I was close to waking up. And I knew he liked to keep track of the cameras using his cell phone. My eyes instinctively twisted to look at the metal chains I was attached to. These weren’t attached to a pulley system like the other pair on the rug. I knew from horrible experience that he could control those from his phone, too.
I heard a beep and my head whipped leftward for the door. Oh, shit. Not already. Two seconds later, the door slid inside the wall and Zander entered, the door swishing back in place. He wasn’t blond anymore but a brunette. Maybe to better hide himself after the raid? Everything else was the same though. Hazel eyes with a thick inner ring of fiery gold, square chin, dimples when he extended his smile just a little too far for comfort, and enough muscles to keep me indefinitely pinned.
He coolly looked my way as he approached the side of the bed I was attached to. I hated how vulnerable I was right now, chained down to his damn bed, nowhere to run even if there was a snowball’s chance in hell I could find a way out of his fortress. In a little house no one will ever know about…
I couldn’t help but notice I wasn’t utterly afraid of him this time, tears not even threatening to run. Did I already know? Had I come to terms these past few months that this was my fate no matter how far I ran or how well I hid? I always knew he’d find me, even before I learned about the tag he had somewhere inside me.
All I knew was that I couldn’t let him scare me this time, manipulate me to no end. I wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of keeping me living in fear. Not this time.
“How do you feel?” he asked, like we were lifelong friends and I wasn’t here to be used as his f**king love slave.
“Nauseous.” It was the truth, but I probably would’ve said it anyway. Maybe the possibility of me throwing up on him would keep him from raping me anytime soon.
His nod was infinitesimal. He reached out to examine the straps around my wrists, his fingers too soft against my skin. “You didn’t untie these. Why?”
“Is that a trick question?” I wasn’t a f**king moron. I knew I had enough slack and that I could’ve reached over and removed them, but I also knew this was a test. Even if I had stayed in bed after taking them off, there was a ninety-nine percent probability it would’ve ended with him beating my ass. I wanted out of this house, but right now, I had no desire for it to be by way of body bag.
He shook his head slightly in way of answering my question. “Because,” I replied, and as much as it pained me to say it, I quietly added, “you haven’t given me permission to yet.”
Well that tickled the jerk. “And here I thought I’d have to beat the submission into you. I’m glad you’ve remembered it’s best to respect my rules.” He reached over again and began unfastening the leather binds. “The nausea is because you’ve been out for several days without food or water.”
Which also explained the cotton mouth, the dry, itchy skin and my headache.
Anger raged inside me. I stiffened my jaw before I could snap at him. “You –” abducted, stole – there were so many words I wanted to say but knew I couldn’t – “came to get me just to keep me sedated?”
One wrist was freed and dropped back down to my side. “I told you. I wasn’t entirely prepared for you just yet. I’ve had to take care of a lot of last minute additions.”
“So I’ve just been chained to this bed and left unconscious?” Fucker. Not that I wasn’t complaining about him not getting to really screw with me until this point, but still… Fucker.
“No. I left you with the man who gave you another round of laser treatments for your skin damage. I just went to collect you this morning.”
My second hand fell freely to the bed and I found myself rubbing soothing circles to each wrist. I looked down, but the lack of light made it difficult to tell the difference with my burns. And they would turn redder before fading again anyway. He must’ve given me something to ease the sting, because I wasn’t feeling the uncomfortable sensations I knew followed one of those treatments. Still, I was annoyed. He was responsible for some of this so-called damage in the first place.
Boldly, I asked, “If you find damaged skin so displeasing, then why did you cut mine up to begin with?”
Oddly enough, his curled smirk told me he was more entertained by my comment than offended. I was lucky this time. I really needed to keep my lips sealed before he split them open for me. Silently, he grabbed at my wrist and pulled me off the bed, then shoved me lightly towards the door. Guess it was time for the tour and obligatory do’s and don’ts of the house. Just as well. It’d give me a chance to figure out my best exit strategy.
I paused just shy of the door, but with a powerful surge to my back, he slammed me up against it, smothering me from behind. I gasped. The door was freezing! Like it was made of steel and painted to match. I gulped when his left hand trailed up my thigh and cupped my ass cheek, his knee moving between my legs to kick them apart. No, no, no, no, no! Not already!
He swept my loose hair to the side before his mouth bit a fiery kiss into my neck. I absolutely froze with fear as both of his hands began roaming the skin beneath this flimsy lavender slip. He yanked on my h*ps and pulled me back just enough for his hands to have room to make their way to my br**sts. I whimpered at the intrusion, but he interpreted it as the complete opposite of how I felt. With one last bite to my neck, he removed his hands from my slip. His abdomen pushed against me as he placed his hands firmly on the door around me, keeping me tightly entrapped. My forehead pressed firmly into the door, hiding the sour expression I made the moment his stiffened dick pressed against me.