I laugh at the expression on his face. “Are you kidding me? I think you’re the only guy that can dance in the whole of Channon. Everyone was staring at me with envy.”
I excuse myself and head to the bathroom. I’m in a stall, handling my business when I hear two women talking.
“Did you see her? She’s fat. Why the fuck is he with her?”
Paulina.
“Who knows, maybe he likes them big.”
They both laugh.
I know I’m not skinny, but I’m also not fat. My body is curvy, but not soft. It’s just the figure I was born to have. The girls leave as I open the door and step to the sink, washing my hands and looking at my reflection in the mirror.
Don’t let them get to you, Trillian. Xander wants you. They’re just jealous.
I push all thoughts away, dry my hands, and exit the bathroom, and then I join Xander at one of the tables.
He stands up as he sees me and kisses my mouth gently. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, why?” I reply instantly. I thought my expression was blank when I left the bathroom.
“Trill,” he growls into my ear. “You look upset. Tell me. Now.”
I sigh. “It was nothing. Just some girls saying shit about me.”
He looks back toward the bathroom where I just came from. “Who?”
“Who do you think,” I grumble. “It doesn’t matter.”
“Tell me what they said. I don’t like anyone talking badly about you and I’m fuckin’ pissed right now.”
Great, now I have to relive it.
“They were wondering why you were with someone as fat as me,” I say, cringing.
Xander lifts my face up so I can’t look away. “Are you fuckin’ kidding me? You’re perfect. I love every inch of your body and I like that you’re not stick thin. They’re clearly just jealous.”
I shrug. “I’m okay with my body. I exercise and I’m healthy. This is just my shape.”
“I know, Trill. I love your body. I get hard just thinking about it so don’t pay them any mind, all right?”
I nod. “Yeah, okay.”
“Good girl. Do you want something else to drink?”
“No, thanks, I’m okay.”
He cups the back of my neck and raises his head, looking behind me. “Who the fuck is that guy staring at you?”
I turn to look in his line of sight and cringe when I see Cain, the guy I lost my virginity to. He was my first and only boyfriend and the relationship lasted three years.
“Old friend of yours?” Xander asks, examining my face closely.
“You could say that,” I reply, shrugging sheepishly.
“Come on, let’s go.”
Xander looks back at Cain then leads me outside the bar.
“What?” I ask as we walk up to his bike.
“I didn’t like the way he was looking at you and last thing I need is to get into a fuckin’ fight tonight.”
My mouth drops open. “How was he looking at me?”
“Like he’d already had you.”
He can tell that by one look?
“I had to deal with the same thing tonight from Paulina. And your time with her was much more recent, but you don’t see me losing my temper,” I say, crossing my arms over my chest.
“When did you sleep with him?” he asks, a muscle ticking in his jaw.
I sigh. “The last time was when I was eighteen. It was about three years ago. He just happens to live in the same town so I’m stuck seeing him around from time to time.”
“He was your first?” he asks through clenched teeth.
“He was,” I say slowly, nodding.
Xander takes a shaky breath. “Yeah, we’re definitely getting out of here.”
I roll my eyes. “Double standards, much?”
He draws me to him with a hand on my ass. “I don’t think I’ve ever felt possessive of a woman before, and I don’t exactly know how to handle it, okay? Right now, all I want to do is shove my fist through his smug looking face for having touched you at all.”
I rest my hand on the centre of his chest. “You’re overreacting, you know that, right? It’s not like I saw you, spoke to you, felt a connection between us then went ahead and slept with someone else.”
He flinches. “Ahh, come on, you can’t throw that in my face, Trill. The difference is, you obviously felt something for this guy to give him your virginity. Everyone before you, I’ve fucked without emotion. Paula whatever the fuck her name is, I fucked her thinking about you. It could have been any woman there. It didn’t matter. You were the only woman I wanted.”
My eyes widen at his admission. I didn’t want to think about him sleeping with anyone else whether he was thinking of me or not. In fact, I didn’t know how to process that bit of information.
I inhale and exhale deeply then decide to change the subject. “Can we talk about this later? Where do you want to go now?”
“We can get something to eat and go back to your house,” he says, tucking my hair behind my ear. “First we’ll go and say goodbye to April.”
“You sure you don’t want to go anywhere else? I don’t want you to have a boring time while you’re here,” I say. “I know we don’t have much to offer compared to the city, but we still have a few fun places to visit.”
“Babe,” he says, grinning. “I came back here this time for you. I just want to be with you. I don’t care what we’re doing. Vertical, horizontal... I just want to be where you are.”