I just stand there next to him, shaking my head as he tells the sales clerk to bag up chocolate-covered and peanut butter-covered Twinkies, chocolate covered bacon, and a chunk of peanut butter foam rock.
Looking over at me as he pays for the diabetic-coma-in-a-bag, he innocently says, "What?" as if he doesn't understand the absurdness of his purchase.
"Nothing," I say in a high-pitched mock defensive tone.
After grabbing lunch, we continue to shop around before deciding to head back. The rain has been constant all day, and we are both in desperate need of clean, dry clothes, especially since we decided to hike in the mud earlier.
Ryan's mom calls to let us know that they are on their way back to the house, so we stop by Fultano's to pick up a few pizzas for an early dinner before everyone leaves.
We arrive home before his mother and aunts do, so Ryan stashes the pizzas in the oven and offers to take the older kids upstairs to play to give their dads a little break. There is a large playroom that he takes the three kids into and has me shut the door behind them.
"Can you guys keep a secret?" he asks them.
Madison, Bailey, and Connor, his four year-old nephew, all say 'yes' in excited unison when Ryan pulls out the bag of sugary junk. I sit back on one of the couches in the room and laugh as Ryan and the kids dive into everything. Watching how he is with these kids, laughing and playing on the floor, is another reason for me to like him even more. I know he owns a successful business and works hard, but it's nice that he has this lighthearted side to him as well.
Ryan comes over to sit next to me with one of the pieces of chocolate covered bacon.
"Here," he says as he tries to hand it to me.
Pushing his hand away, I say, "Gross. I'm not eating that."
"It's surprisingly really good." He takes a bite out of it and holds the leftover piece to my mouth. "Just try it," he says, and I open my mouth and bite it out of his grip.
I'm amazed that it is actually good. The salt and smoke of the bacon blends well with the sweetness of the chocolate.
"Okay, you win. That was actually really good," I admit.
Ryan looks out the window that's over my shoulder then back to the kids.
"Guys, eat fast. Our mom's just pulled up."
The three of them giggle as they try desperately to scarf down the rest of the sweets. Ryan and I laugh while watching them in their simplicity of fun. We get up, and Ryan wads up all the wrappers.
Holding out my hands, I say, "Give them to me. I'll hide them."
The kids run downstairs and Ryan hands over the wrappers as I walk to his room. He follows me in and closes the door behind us. I walk into the bathroom and toss everything in the trashcan. When I walk out, Ryan is sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Come over here," he says.
Walking over to him, he pulls me between his legs and slides his arms around my waist. Because of our height difference, we are almost level. Looking at me, he says, "I'm glad you're here with me."
I smile at him with my hands gripped on his shoulders. "Me too."
Placing his hand behind my neck, he draws me in so he can kiss me. He keeps the kiss short then pulls me down to sit on his knee. The room is dark as we stare at each other with our foreheads resting together. Being like this with him, in this quiet room, is peaceful. Neither one of us speaks as we sit here together.
"We should go downstairs," I whisper.
Whispering back, he says, "Not yet."
We stay like this, me on his knee, foreheads together, when Connor comes bursting through the door.
"Busted!" he shouts.
I jump up, and Ryan turns to him. "What do you mean?"
"Bailey had chocolate on her face and Mom is blaming you."
"Okay, kid, let's go face the firing squad."
When Connor starts running back downstairs, Ryan and I follow.
"What did you feed these kids?" Tori asks Ryan.
"I'll never tell, and neither will they," he jokes as the kids start laughing uncontrollably. "Call it a going-home present," he says with a wink.
"Payback's a bitch. Just remember that, Ryan. One of these days, when you have kids, you'll see."
Ryan laughs at her, and I try to stifle my laugh as well. Watching their playful banter is pretty funny.
The house is quiet and still. Everyone left about an hour ago, and I have been curled up on the couch, reading one of my favorite childhood books I found on the bookshelf, since I got out of the shower. Ryan is upstairs, getting cleaned up, while I drink a cup of hot tea and read as the rain trickles down the large windows that look out to the beach.
"Where's Ryan?" Donna asks as she walks into the room.
"He's taking a shower."
She grabs a couple blankets and joins me on the couch. "Here, cover up. It's cold."
Draping the blanket across my lap, I set the book down and say, "Thanks."
She wraps up in her blanket and asks, "How are you doing, dear?"
"Good actually. I'm sorry I wasn't around much to visit with everyone. I hope no one thought I was being rude."
"No one thought that. Please, no need to apologize."
"It's just...I'm not used to being around a large group. It's a little overwhelming for me."
"You don't need to explain. Everyone loves you. It was a nice surprise to have you, and Ryan seems really happy."
"Oh," I say, not sure how to respond to her statement.