I sleep most of the drive to Oregon, but Ryan wakes me up as he exits the highway.
"Where are we?" I say, still groggy.
"Portland."
"Why?"
"Because I want to stop by Voodoo Doughnut. I'm starving."
"Do we really need to drive all the way into the city to get a doughnut?" I groan.
Looking at me with all seriousness, he says, "Yes."
Giving him a half smile, I shake my head. We drive through the city and when we find a parking space, we walk, and get in the line that wraps around the building.
Standing in line with a variety of sugar-crazed Portland hippies, we finally make our way inside the artsy grunge doughnut shop. I stand next to the glass display and stare at the insane doughnuts that rotate on the round trivets. I look over at Ryan and ask, "You're really going to eat one of those?"
"You are too. What do you want?"
"None."
"Okay, then, I'll pick for you."
Shaking my head, still feeling tired, I let him choose for me.
Looking down at me, he gets an evil grin and says, "I'm getting you the c**k and balls doughnut."
"Ryan!" I elbow him in the ribs and start looking at the menu behind the registers.
He's still laughing at me when the girl behind the register starts taking our order.
I carry the pink box and set it on one of the tables outside. I pull out my doughnut that is covered in Fruit Loops, and Ryan takes his creepy voodoo doll-looking doughnut with a pretzel stick that is stabbed through the heart. I laugh at him when he bites off the head and winks at me.
We take our time as we get wired on sugar and laugh together. When the light mist starts to thicken into heavier drops, I toss the remainder of my doughnut that I'm too full to finish, and we head back to the car to resume our drive to Cannon Beach.
We get to his mom's house about an hour later, and it's close to dinnertime. I am so happy to see Donna, and she is sweet enough to help Ryan unpack my bags when she sees how tired I am. Ryan explains to her that I had a rough night, and she goes downstairs to get me some hot tea.
Running his hands up and down my arms, he asks, "Are you hungry, babe?"
"No, I'm just so tired my head hurts," I say as I rest my forehead on his chest.
"Why don't you change and lie down?"
When I get into bed, Donna knocks on the door and sets the tea down on the nightstand along with a couple of aspirin.
"Ryan said you had a headache."
"Thanks. I'm sorry to come and just crash."
"Sweetie, please. Don't worry about me." As she closes the blinds she tells me that Ryan is eating a quick dinner and will come up when he's done. I take the aspirin along with my sleeping pill, and after a few sips of the hot tea, I doze off.
Waking in a haze in the middle of the night, Ryan is wrapped around me. I roll over to face him, and when I do, he begins to stir.
"Everything, okay?" he whispers as he tucks me closer to him.
"Mmm hmm." I weave my legs with his and close my eyes again, drifting easily back to sleep.
"How are you feeling?" Donna asks as she sits down with me on the couch and hands me a cup of coffee.
"Much better, thanks."
"Hey," Ryan says as he comes down the stairs, already dressed for the day.
"Good morning," his mom says when he walks over and sits on the couch with us.
"So, you two are going to have the day to yourselves. Marci called me this morning and I have to drive into Portland to go over and sign off on some tax documents. While I'm there I'm going to meet with a friend of mine for a late lunch, so I won't be home till around six or so. But I have no plans for the rest of week. This just popped up yesterday."
"Don't worry about it, Mom. I was going to see if I could convince Candace to hop on a surfboard with me."
"What?!" I say as I jerk my head to look at him.
"I just checked the weather and the waves should be pretty good at the beach we went to the last time you were here."
"That water's going to be freezing, Ryan."
He laughs at me and says, "That's why you wear a wetsuit, babe."
His mother interjects and says, "Well, have fun with that, Candace," dripping in playful sarcasm. "I need to go get ready. I'll see you guys later tonight."
Ryan and I head up to his room, and when I get out of the shower, I wrap a towel around myself to go grab some clothes.
"Fuck, babe," Ryan says as I walk into the bedroom.
"Don't start," I say as I lay my hand on his chest, keeping him from coming any closer. "Your mother is downstairs."
"I don't care who the f**k is downstairs when the only thing covering your wet body is that towel."
"That's why I'm getting my clothes."
I quickly grab my clothes and run back into the bathroom before Ryan can strip the towel off of me. Once I'm dressed and walk back out, he says, "Tori has an extra wetsuit in my closet that should fit you okay."
"What?"
"Surfing. You and me."
"I'm fine with trying anything new, but that water is freezing."
"I promise, when you're in that wetsuit, you'll be fine. Tori loves to surf, so she has her wetsuit here and some swimsuits in my closet."
When we get to Indian Beach, the wind is just as strong as the last time we were here. The mist is thick, and the skies are dark and heavy with clouds today. I grab one of the blankets that Ryan put in the car before we left the house and wrap it around me when I get out. Ryan unhooks the boards from the top of the jeep, and we head down the wooden stairs to the wet and rocky beach. I stop and watch the rough waves as they crash along the shore. If ever there was a time I worried about breaking a leg, it's now.