I leave her be as I head down to my office. Despite the shit day, I need to call my mom because in Candace’s drunken state last night, she revealed that her birthday is in a few days, and I want to surprise her by having my mom here. They have been talking more and more on the phone, and I know Candace would like to see her. Hell, after this month, it’ll be nice to have her here for a few days.
“Hi, dear,” she says when she answers my call.
“Hey, Mom. I have a favor to ask.”
“Sure. What is it?”
“It’s Candace’s birthday on Thursday, and I was wondering if you can manage to get away for a few days and come stay here with us?” I ask.
“This Thursday?”
“Yeah.”
“Ryan, that’s in five days. Why didn’t you tell me about this sooner?” she nags.
“Because I just found out last night. This was sprung on me too, Mom.”
“Why did she wait so long to tell you?”
“I don’t know, but it slipped out last night. I know she’d love to see you, so I was hoping . . .”
“I’ll be there.”
“Thanks. I’m not gonna tell her, so if you two talk before then, don’t mention anything. I want her to be surprised.”
“Lips are sealed.”
“And no gifts,” I remind her.
“Ryan.”
“I have no problem with it, but I know how she is, so . . .”
“Fine. No gifts,” she says with a faint laugh. “How has everything else been? I haven’t talked to Candace in a few days; how did her audition go?”
“It seemed to go really well. She was insanely happy afterward. She should know if she got the solo on Friday.”
“That’s great. Is she around to talk to?”
“She’s sleeping.”
“Oh, okay. Well, tell her to call me when she has time.”
“Yeah, I will.”
“Everything else okay?” she asks, and although I’ve always been open with my mom, I know this thing with Candace will forever remain private, so I simply tell her, “Yeah, Mom. Everything’s great.”
We continue to chat for a few more minutes before we say goodbye. When I walk upstairs, I see Candace curled into a small ball in the center of my bed. Shrugging off my shirt, I crawl in to take a nap with her. I slide in behind her, and as I pull her into me, she rolls over to face me, eyes still closed. Draping my arm around her, she nuzzles her head in the curve of my neck, and finally, after all the tension of the day, I relax in the warmth of her.
Chapter Thirty
“What do you want to do for your birthday, babe?” I ask as she stretches before heading to the studio for rehearsals. I always enjoy seeing her like this—poised, hair up tight in a bun, leotard with an old pair of torn, baggy sweats. There’s no doubt she was made to dance because she completely looks the part, and that look is doing things to me that I need to get under control.
“Nothing. I told Jase that the four of us could just grab dinner.”
“We do that all the time.”
She sits on the ground to roll her ankles when she says, “Please don’t get any ideas. I really don’t like doing anything for my birthday.”
“Why?” I ask when I sit in front of her and take her leg in my hand to rub out her muscles.
“My mom would always throw me these over-the-top parties when I was little. Well, she threw them for her and her friends. It was all show with the moms, everyone trying to one-up the others. It was never what I wanted, and I would spend the whole day upset but forced to pretend to be their perfect daughter and behave as etiquette told me I should.”
“So let me do something nice for you,” I suggest.
“It makes me uncomfortable. It always has. I’m a year older; I just don’t see the big deal in making a fuss over it.”
“Candace.”
Her only response is a shrug of her shoulders.
“So tell me then, what was it that you really wanted when you were a kid?” I ask when I move to massage her other leg.
Her hands rest in her lap as she sits on the floor and tells me, “Simple. It sounds trite, but what I really wanted was my friends to come over and play with me. Have a cheap cake from the grocery store instead of the fondant covered ones my mom would order from the bakery in town. That fondant tastes like crap, you know?” she says with her brows raised with exaggeration, and I laugh at her.
“I don’t even know what that is,” I admit with a smile.
“Well, it’s gross. And I hated—hated—being forced to open all the gifts in front of everyone. I never got toys, but instead little trinkets and things. Like that bouncy ball,” she exclaims. “I never got stuff like that.”
“So that’s why you hate getting presents?”
“It’s just awkward for me, so I’d rather not deal with it.”
“I’ll call Jase. Why don’t we just hang out here? Eat pizza, watch TV,” I suggest.
She smiles, agreeing, “Sounds perfect.”
She’s simple in ways that I like, but for reasons that shouldn’t be. I’ll give Candace her non-birthday birthday party, but I can’t not get her something to make it special. Because it is. So I’ll find a way to do that for her without making her feel uncomfortable. My girl can be a challenge, but I like that about her.
While Candace is busy on campus all day, I head over to Fremont to stop by a couple vintage antique shops. Jase and Candace are always hanging out here, and I know Candace well enough that she doesn’t buy most of her things from mass marketed retail shops. Yeah, she’s simple, but she likes nice things.