There was also a tiny bit of relief washing over me. That was the one bright side to all of this: I didn’t have to lie anymore. That weight was no longer on my shoulders.
I eased myself up on my elbows and rubbed my temples. Naps always made me feel more tired than before I went to sleep, and this was definitely no exception.
“Yeah, it’s OK,” Ada said into the phone, her voice a few octaves higher than normal. “I should stay home. I don’t think my parents would let me out anyway. They’re stupid.”
She burst into a flurry of girlish giggles before saying, “OK hottie, see you tomorrow. Bye.”
She hung up her cell, staring at it for a few moments with a goofy grin on her face before placing it down beside her.
“Hottie? Who was that?” I asked groggily, not meaning to intrude but insanely curious just the same. I knew Ada liked guys, but I didn’t recall her ever calling any of them “hottie” before.
I fully expected her to tell me to mind my own business but instead she rushed over to me and held out her pinky finger.
“Pinky swear you won’t tell Mom and Dad?”
I took her pinky in my own and promised. For once Ada looked and sounded like someone I could relate to.
“Okaaay,” she grinned and went over to her designer bag and started rifling through it. She pulled out a high school yearbook photo, you know the terrible ones you got to hand out to your friends and sign the back of. Not that many people ever wanted mine with my double chin and blue hair and all.
I took it and looked it over. The cute, albeit older, face of a buzz–cut boy stared back at me. He looked like a jock with nary a spark of intelligence behind his dull eyes.
“That’s Layton. He’s my boyfriend.” She pronounced ‘boyfriend’ like it was joke. I could see from her eyes she wasn’t joking though. She was head over heels and trying to play it cool.
“How long have you guys been dating?” I asked, feeling just a tad protective. I remembered last month I had found a box of condoms in her drawer (I wasn’t snooping if that’s what you think) and prayed she wasn’t using it with this guy. He looked too old for her.
“Oh, since the beginning of the school year,” she said in a tone that was both casual and proud.
“And he’s a good kid?”
“Yes,” she sighed, and snatched the photo out of my hands. “Are you Mom now?”
“I’m just wondering.”
“You don’t trust my judgment.”
“I…” I put my hands up in the air and ended up shrugging. “He looks cute. I’m glad he makes you happy.”
“He does,” she squealed. “He’s more than cute, he’s f**king hot. And he’s on like every sports team there is.”
I never pegged Ada to be the type to think dating a jock was cool, but if it was popular, then that explained a lot. Ada operated a successful fashion blog and who knows how many people she won over on a daily basis from just showing off her enviable body and insane wardrobe.
I wonder if she gets any hateful blog comments, I thought. I made a mental note to ask her later.
The image of the condom box flashed in my head again. I had to say, “I hope you’re not sleeping with him.”
“Perry!” she admonished. “That’s none of your business.”
“Maybe not…and I don’t want it to be. I just want you to be careful. Things can turn ugly really fast and if you’re not careful…” Fuzzy, angry memories drifted into my head. I waved them away.
“I am careful!”
“So you are having sex!” I exclaimed.
She leaped off the bed and crossed her arms. “For your information, no I’m not. And like you’re a saint…you’re sleeping with Dex.”
Now it was my time to leap off the bed. “I am not!”
The accusation was ludicrous (though immensely appealing).
She raised her penciled brow at me. “Right,” she said slowly. “You just spend all this time with this ‘hot’ older guy, you know, being chased by ghosts or whatever and jetting all over the place. Sure you’re not f**king him.”
My jaw dropped. It all sounded so vulgar coming from her mouth. Suddenly I felt ashamed that I had those feelings to begin with. And why did she use air quotes around “hot”?
“First of all, Missy,” I said, sticking up my fingers and ticking them off, “I’m 23–”
“22.”
“Whatever. I’m 22. Which means I’m old enough to be able to handle having sex with someone. Second of all, Dex has a girlfriend. Third of all, Dex is my partner. Yes, we spend a lot of time together, but it’s on a purely professional level.”
More images flitted into my head while I was saying that. The way he sometimes looked at me, like he was searching deep inside my skull to discover how I was really feeling. The times I found myself being comforted in his arms. The way I had fallen asleep with my head on his bare chest, hearing his heartbeat lull me to sleep. The way his lips felt on my mouth, the jolt of electricity that made dying almost seem like a fair tradeoff.
“Yeah, well you obviously want to sleep with him and it’s only a matter of time,” she said, stuffing the photo back into her purse like it was a secret document.
My ears pricked up at that comment but I brushed it away. “I doubt it, Ada. It won’t happen.”
“I hope you’re right,” she said as she walked over to the side table and picked up the cold mug of tea. “Do you want me to make you more tea since this went to waste?”
“Sure and what do you mean, you hope I’m right?”
“I’m sure you can figure it out,” she said overconfidently and walked out of the room.
Figure it out? Figure what out?
I hopped off of her bed and followed her into the hallway like a curious cat. She had stopped halfway down the staircase and was just standing there, staring into the living room just as she had done earlier when I was fighting with my parents. A horrible feeling swept across me. What was she looking at? Were my parents both dead in the living room?
I didn’t even let my mind dwell on that morbid thought. I walked down the stairs to join her and heard my dad’s voice boom, “Just know I don’t like this one bit,” letting me know that they weren’t dead after all.